i wonder sometimes whether the statement 'provide good service' which they repeat over and over again means sucking up to the customer to the extend til bending down to lick their toes for them when ordered.

when a simple word like c-o-m-p-t-r-o-l-l-e-r was repeated for more than 10 over times, and the other party STILL cannot get it despite being english educated, what does it mean?

mind you, i spelt it out.

despite having repeat in a vvveerrrryyy sslllloooowwww pace, just hoping SHE is able to catch the oh-so-difficult 11-lettered word (omg!! more than 10 letters!! so long!)

she said i was irritating!! so sad!! =(

oh so u asked for my NAME and wanna WRITE A LETTER on my IRRITATING behaviour? why dun you tune your mind faster so you wun irritate others instead? huh??? or did pregnancy slow u down? huh????

you know what? i dont care, when i m angry i will curse that said person til death.
and i MEAN it. seriously mean it.

i know i may appear angry and super unreasonable now. and all you may wonder when did me become such a vengeful person now?

sorry ok? some of you may not have been spoken to in e face like what that mad woman said to me in MY face. so you dont know what it really feels.

and sorry to post only ANGRY blog post nowadays. maybe i should just make this place private and only i see what i vent. as there are also not many happy things happening to me anyway.


ya.. the happy ger i used to be is gone ever since like 4 months ago? someday i will just drown in unhappiness and just disappear from world, not like ANYONE will miss me.

i m up for providing fantastic service anytime, but not to the extend of sucking up to them and demeaning myself. tts an insult, not service.

til next time if you find this url no longer valid meaning i decided to stop depressing you ppl with my angry and hateful thoughts. maybe til 3 long years later when the happy me which is hidden deep deep inside is able to come out to light again then i shall open up again and blog like what you happy and joyous ppl do.

ok. i told myself yest not to touch the container of snacks in the cardboard, but then jus nw.. i cant help it.

not coz of my boredom that i snacked, but just tt i snacked coz i was too pissed off.

jus some blah issues in the office..

i know my thots are quite out of point and complicated sometimes, but e meaning i trying to get across shouldnt be THAT difficult to understand right? sometimes we just need to THINK outta the box and we could all get what we all want.

i hate to repeat things. esp when i am having my period.
b.y.e.

nothing-ness.

sometimes how i wish to be a statue, or just something which is non-living.
or maybe i would just be an animal, a lil bird or a lil ant.

so i wouldnt have feelings at all.

proud

Am proud of myself luh.. Hiak!
Coz I came to work today despite the heavy rain.
considering wanna take half day anot, coz I cant afford to take anymore MC.
work 6 months with 8 days of MC?!!?!
I is slacker. in the end i did come to work at 8am.

YAY!!! I AM MEETING BUDDIES FOR STARDUST LATERRR!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!

and i wore my flip flops to work!!
told ya, I is slacker.

so sian huh, gonna be top 20 for internet surfing again for this month i tell u!
shit.. maybe i shall go flip the tax act or sth and keep my itchy hands off the mozilla..

*sulks*

see ya buddies laterrrrrr..

*SULKS*

Sigh...

Yay!! It's winter again meaning...
Meltykisses are out again!! Yummy.. out in watsons at $3.60 for a small box!
Go get them! Dont buy the raspberry flavored one, taste horrible.. I love the green tea! muaha.


So sian loh, such nice chocolates only limited for winter time!! Boo.

Anyway, I am really damn sian. Not really coz of work leh.. ugrh, my eye is twitching...... BAH.

Urgh. my left feet got 2 bubbles, and a big round wound. The big round wound looks like someone had used a shaver and shaved my skin. sama for my right feet.

all thanks to the pair of fucking jellies!!!

humph... i offically hates jellies now!! pretty... but.... BBBBBBBAAAAAAAAHHH!

luckily i got it cheap.. humph!! gers, DONT BUY JELLIES OK! they are evil.. =(

silly me left my ipod in the office, and i cant listen to my jay chou on mp3 ! urgh..





it's 12 midnight... and still nothing.. i m getting seriously worried.. *sigh*

Life, has been pissing me off endlessly for quite some time alr.

Stress? No, I dont think so that's the reason. I think given anyone whom face so much pressure from everywhere, everyside and everybody for like almost since you are up til you sleep is enough to make that person flip!

Seriously, i am sick of those
jin hui here.... jin hui there.....
jinhui THIS
jinhui THAT

and when i DO NOT comply. I am deemed as ATTITUDE, UNHELPFUL, IMPATIENT, SELF-CENTERED.

EVERY SINGLE DAY, i get ppl coming to me not knowing what they want and actually think that I can give them WHATEVER they want. What's worse? These ppl got NO basic manners, dont their mother even teach them when you ASK for something, even if you dont say the word 'PLEASE' at least keep your tone of your voice acceptable. As you talk to these ppl everyday, as long as these ppl speaks with a normal tone alr very happy liao.

Like today, i dun really mind if i get rubbish from external sources, but what bout ppl from internal of the organisation?! this stupid woman does the same thing as me, after looking at her photo, i can conclude that she had been working for at least 8 years. This means that she is a lot more experience than me right?! NO!!! She gave such unclear and un-detailed information for such a simple and universal question and expects me to know what she wants? And this dumb person had the cheek to say, 'As I already told you jus now, so can u help me check?!?!!?!' She said it all in a sibeh rude and impatient way. And in the end, when I finally talk to the taxpayer myself, I settled it in like 3 mins???? And the question asked was really really just standard procedues that any temp staff can answer lor.

No wonder work so long liao still SAME POSITION AS ME. *shakes head*

When everyone expect you to be a 'yes-man', when at times you say the word 'no' they come chasing you with a knife and refuse to let you, and til the extend of breathing down your neck and leaving u no room to even BREATHE. I dont get it, I m not someone understanding, or neither am i capable of reading a person's mind. Or I am also not someone who will constantly think of how others are feeling, blah blah .. I cant do all that, its just not me to be so detailed and patient and careful.

As I think back, over the years, my expectations of things changed so drastically that I really do not know whether I am just trying to bend myself to fit in with the expectations ppl want from me.

but hey, why shld i be the one bending myself, i wonder sometimes. These years, i keep trying to live up to expectations but almost all the time when the situation is the other way round, I keep getting disappointed instead.

those above are not just work, they are just things from everywhere that are all bottled in for a long long long long time and i had never let them out before.


i dont know, i m really tired of ppl demanding this and that from me. I know for work its like that, but these are matters over a super long time and I never found a chance or way to say them out. Sometimes I jus feels like retreating back into my shell and ignore the world, and maybe doing things i want or jus seeing the ppl that i wanna see.

Thinking back from square one, i dont see the point of me getting upset at ppl whom are upset at me, actually i dont really care at all.........