no future

okayyy...

the interview was oookkkkayyy.. i think my performance wasnt the killer, but instead was the no confidence of the interviewers have in me. they kept bombarding me about business stuffs instead of the interest i have for the job. esp the chairman, seems like he has A LOT A LOT of doubts bout me. hai. but then again, meaningful job is one thing, benefit is another thing. i know bout all those stuffs bout interest and such, but for me and the situation i m in now, monetary benefits are much more important.

so yea.

i will know my results tml when i go work, and so will the whole office.

oh wells.

if i m lucky, i will be offered the contract option, if not, i would get the C grade then be kicked out.

anyway, 90% chance i would be rejecting the offer. i went for the interview just for the 'mian zi'. haha. coz if i didnt turn up for the interview, cfm kana say at work tml. lol.

IRAS called, interview next thurs, salary sounds good. shall see about the prospects. caller damn attitude thou. called baby, she flying to china tml, bon voyage. lol! i canot imagine myself eating from the plates of the restaurants in china again. yucks.

met up with buds yest ... all working now. all of them looks great, like grown ups!! except for me.. still tt fat, pudgy piece of lard.

anyway i m tired. i think the whole office tml will know how sucky i did in the interview today and they will all laugh til their teeth drop. maybe i shall bring a spade to work tml, to dig up a whole and bury myself in it. hahah.. if their teeth drop and i can intro them to do dentures with dr chong.. and dr chong shall increase my pay coz i bring so many business to him. ok lame not funny.

jingwen's last day's monday. AARRRGGHH!! perhaps if mag comes back tml and can then esther can come work with me. lol. so someone will have lunch with me. xiu's coming back i think 2 weeks later? prolly i would be gone by then..............

slp time.. nites

monday blues monday blues monday blues..

I DONT WANNA GO WORK TML!

but i need to.............

coz ah mok's making me work 3 days per week from next month onwards only!
grrrr....... if i quit this job i'll prolly eat grass for the month of june.
but if i dont quit, i be able live like a queen on my own with all the cash flowing in..
in return i will need to bear with all the shits 5 days per week.
but then again...... i can also look for other jobs.
yea... i hope july dont come so quickily, i dont wanna join PA!

btw, there's this dreadful fear that i MAY get the sack for being so redundant..
oh wells.

took 2 days off work in just my 1st week. LOL! Had a good rest for 4 whole days! I just dont consider work at clinic as work, coz simply I enjoy it! Celebrated bf's bday! Happy 22nd. I got him this manly, atas, chic looking guess wallet, and now both of us got cool and matching wallets. woohoo.. SHI MEI DE LO!! Honestly, i like it almost as much as my own's, lao niang can just sniff at the leather all day! Dont you just love the fragrance of new leather. hoho.

anyone can intro a good place i can trim my brows?

alright,
sleeptime!
tml assisting crown prep!! i hate crown preps!! grrrr......................

i hate mondays........

New job-

sucky job.

whatever.

thinking of quiting either this week or next.

at MOE doing temp admin.

only nice things are,

JINGWEN'S working with me! comforting to have a familiar face to see everyday... like today mood was bad, work was bad, everything else was bad. on e verge of tearing (literally) then jingwen sud appeared on my desk with a huge grin at 12.15 to tell me lunch time is coming. =) official lunch time is 1pm, but everyone will disappear by 1240. we left at 1230 sharp.... off work too.. 530pm sharp both of us step out of the place alr. haha. and i had a happy lunch with her too! lala!

oooooooooohh

and misskoh's working same place as me!!!! happy to see her.....
i think her position quite high, coz jingwen said to see e position of the person, see how tall e cubicle is. ok.. misskoh's cubicle is very high. lol.

but she leaving on fri for china! =( when she's back, i'll be gone.

i made a good purchase today! it's good, i like!! goody mood is back! =))))

I AM SO ANGRY

SO BLARDY ANGRY..
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO USE THE LIFTS!! I mean when u take lifts there are 2 buttons right? If you want to go up then you press the up button, then if you want to go down you press the down button. BUT SOME IDIOTS WOULD JUST PRESS BOTH THE BUTTONS. STUPID PEOPLE STUPID PEOPLE STUPID PEOPLE!!!!!!

sian. jingwen took off today. and i m so super bored during lunch. But lunch mates are quite ok.. still got talk to me and such..

work is boring, they gave me very little work, asked the perm staffs for work, but they seem too busy to care. in the end, ask the other temp staff, he had to keep on squeezing work out for me. it's obvious that he is irritated by me.

sian.

i need buy new clothes but decided not to go alone.........
and bf is out. and no meeting today..
means i wun get to see him til thurs..
3 days of no bf!
3 DAYS!!
3 DAYS!!!!!
the furthest i go is 2 days without bf only....
sian....
when i finally can talk to him at night, i canot concentrate coz am too tired.
hai.

watever. i m gg to slp soon.. pms and moodswing the whole day alr.. i m tired. nothing can cheer me up.

i want kfcmacsicecreamchocdesertscakescreamychickensushilobsterpastaben&jerrys..... .....
AND NEW CLOTHES.
shopping anyone?

OH HEY YOOO!!

waiting for bf to finish work. he's suppose to finish work an hour ago!!
hai...

sian..
boring..
i wanna see bf!

boring life.moody life.

blog coz bf wants me to.

With germy at the heerens on tues. miss the girls lots.. esp chi, used to see her everyday for the last 2 sems, but now, i havent hear from her for like weeks? sis and wen got into nus alr. so good.. i want be a undergrad too!

I MET UP WITH ESTHER TODAY!!! =)) we went vivo's marche to eat!! hen hao chi!! still as pretty but a bit too xin fu alr. haha. anyway, real happy for her. she kept asking me bout how are all the classmates doing, but i kept answering her i dont know. coz the only sec sch ppl whom i constantly are in contact with are only buddies and hua, meihui. lol.

things i do when things gets too boring at home. but the ever so wonderful and nice bf says they are UGLY! THANKS HOR.

and the same pic of us.

i m moody. AGAIN. bf is moody too. everyone is moody....

work is boring. home is boring. life is boring.

i m really falling into depression.

i want eat like a glutton but bf and myself say i fat.

i want shop and have retail therapy but i want save money.

whatever, depression can come kill me if it wants to. COME!! KILL ME KILL ME!! LET ME DIE!!!!

ok.. quick blog...
2 things!


1st! I WANT A JOB!1
I DONT WANT TO BELONG TO THE ECONOMIC INACTIVE IN THE POPULATION..

2nd!
I LOVE BOYFRIEND! AND HIS NEW BMW BIKE!
p.s. not bmx.. is really bmw.. lol.

yay yay

yippee yippee ..
blog blog time..

good news!
grandma is OUT OF HOSPITAL!!
yay yay..
yippee yippee ...

as you can see, i m really bored....
just returned from a shopping cum dinner trip with my dearest ah part.
oh.. and an interview at cpf..
e interview was................ nvm.
130 interview and i was still home at 1pm.
have even the time to chat a while with vanes when she called. lol.
msging part and bf all the while...
met partner then shopped..
tt rich char bor bot shoes, clutch...... RICH.
and i got another pair of havis! germ got the red.. and i got the gold coloured slim version!
so nice..so wonderful..so cool....................
but now...
my bf disappeared..
he vanished..
i canot reach him........
i duno he's sleeping or playing his game.... i wan kick him...
and i got nice brownies and nice donuts which i wanted to share...
but... here am i eating all by myself...
so nice.. so yummy....
enjoying e goodies by myself.....
but sharing will make them all yummier.

yest, guess who i received a call from?!!
ESTHER WONG JING JING!
while i was getting hound by a perv in nuh shuttle bus............
but tt's another story...
yay.. esther is back in action..
so good...so nice..so wonderful....

and yest, i saw big sis...
another person whom i haven seen for months..
so happy.. so nice.. so wonderful..
she wanted to pass me present and since i was free thus meet up with her before work..
i thot i could have a nice chat with her at least for a couple of hours...
hary and grace was with her.. which is nice too, i haben seen them for sometime..
but i still couldnt have a nice chat coz another 2 other not likeable ppl were there....
(i m not refering to hary and grace)
watever..
i sat for a while..
which was NOT nice coz i canot chat openly, comfortably, properly..
and i dun wan face the 2 non likeable people..
SO WHAT'S THE POINT?
thus i left.............................
coz i fucking hate one hypocrite!
to national library...
ya.. i rather go library to silent read/rot/slack/stone/be bo liao than face hypocrite
i love big sis.. but i dun need to love everyone ard her.
and i went work half an hour early..
and boss not in.. i chatted with kathy! =)

lovely.. it's another day at home tml.. sian..
y moe hasnt call me yet...
i miss bf............... =(
i dun wan get neglected by the society..
i dun wan belong to the unemployed sector..
i miss my bf... =(((((

TODAY IS GOOD FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

yay! spent another happy lazy afternoon with sweets....
muacks.
grandma's 6th day in hospital, she's looking good. =D
thankfully..
it's been really nice to be to sit beside her and talk.
*grins

was feeling too bored and started hallucinating bout my future job,
asked sweets if my name's too difficult to rmb by ppl.
he offered to think of a nice english name for me.
just now, i told him over the phone bout the nickname the girls and tb29 been calling me since year 1.
huizi huizi.... hazel hazel..
and now i got the name HAZEL!!

everyone rmb ok.
my bf gave me this name on good friday 2007. he said it's sacred.

i think i m having mild depression...... =(
thanks bf for the encouragments.
gg for interview for cpf board on tues.

moodyyy

i m v v moody now.

it's boring at home here.

i went jogging today! 3 rounds around the stadium... and maybe coz of then exercise, i keep feeling hungry today..

i think sweets dont love me anymore..
sadd-ed =(
or izit that i think too much?
or maybe i just need a job..

i think i may have depression.....................................................................
having seaweed now, feel a bit better lor..
i guess no matter how much i changed, whenever i m not happy, i just need my food..