NO PHONE TIL FRI!
phone spoil... all data gone! not like there's anything impt in there anyway.
not happy day for me yest.
sucks like hell. oh wells...

took momoki out for e 1st time. 'neh.. looks good but no suspension with spoilt gear', the bf said. we cruised ard the neighbourhood a lil before momoki come back to my hse again.

been sending out a few resumes, but not to those jobs search webbies. the idea of working like those kind is putting me off more and more. I want something more meaningful... something valuable to do.

ha. and partially something to keep me normal in the future. whatever that happens to me, i will still be.... normal... and sane.. and i wouldnt lost myself. yea, take it as i m safe-guarding my future.

and i just sent out the application for 'meaningful job' minutes ago, and i don't know if i made the right choice. but parents and bf are all very happy................ i m feeling a bit scared i think, whatever it is, i want to teach those kids.

i miss meiyu. no matter how angry and frustrated i used to feel, or how much i feel like going mad, all i need is a tuition session with her, and i can feel myself again. whether she's willing to listen to me that day, or willling to do the work i gave her, or willing to cooperate with me to sit still, i always feel a whole lot different after that one hour and a half. i m always fastinated by the blank i have in my mind before the tuition and the fulfilling feeling after that. i guess i m missing that now. today i saw the old folk's home opp bf's hse..... i suddenly got this resentment against the stupid diploma to my name.


whatever.. whatever....

i m sorry.... really really sorry....

new start.

ah mu's offday today.
spent a really nice day with him.. =) thanks dear.
watched 2 movies. little man and baobei ji hua.
then played need for speed. i dun like tt game but all the while quite addictive.
kept losing thou! have u ever heard of racing then ur opponent found out tt u too far behind then he actually stopped and waited for u to catch up?
ya.. my bf's the one.
i m such a loser!!!
i m liking his xbox more and more.... =D
went eat tt nice nice chicken wing at commonwealth..
he dun find it nice thou....
my bf is one of e most nonsense-cial person i ever met. lol.
ilu. =D

yeaaapp.. met up with my dears on tues.
without sister and james thou.
ya.. been kicked out of FSSP. i m bang zhu no more...
they just wun let me stay. bah.
eh ur better make me membership of the affiliates ok!

la.. ok.. i shall start searching for jobs intensively tml.....

lala.. objective of this entry is to say i spent a really sweet day with bf. ha.. let everyday be like this. muacks.

struggling to remain calm and sane..
i want to retreat. hide back in my shell where there's nothing but me and peace.

alll i wan is merely to be happy.

It's now then I realised that everything was not what I think it is.
blame it on my slow-ness, i am kinda dumb if you realise.

Why is it when everything starts to go smoothly for me and just when i thought i'll be fine and happy and blah...... some imperfection has to come out and crash my happy fairytale?

oh what do you all that?
ya, SPOILER

fucking spoiler. I hope spoiler dont happen and just disappear from the surface of earth. just go away, dont ruin my happy fairytale. you are taking away mine stuffs bit by bit, argh. and the worse is, i canot blame anything for that. like wtf....

even if spoiler does happen, i'll just have to LL and give up my happy fairytale.

LIKE WTF RIGHT?!!!!

sian... i think i m cursed........ just like the fact that everyone thought i know but actually i dont. and like the fact that everytime i eat raisins, i'll find worms in them. Now i got one more thing to add in the cursed list, which is everytime things are going happy and fine for me, there will always be something to come out and burst my bubble.

mum's irritating me everyday. argh.

am i getting emo? gosh, i hate getting emo. esp getting emo while thinking to myself, like wtf!!!!!!!!!!

i m morphing into an emo lian. shit.

I was listening to baby's blog song...


爱真的有那么简单吗？

=(

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i visited grandaunt today.......
hmm.. wish she will get well soon.

sweets's sick , and i think he's sleeping...
i m still bloated from dinner.
I AM FAT.
SOOMPA I am gg swim tml.

Yay

Ok, I just feel like having a new blog.
so there..
Will still keep the old one coz I like the @, and I dont want to have other ppl using it.
LOL.

And to frens who know this site,
pls dont spread or link it ok.

DONT OKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!