NO PHONE TIL FRI!
phone spoil... all data gone! not like there's anything impt in there anyway.
not happy day for me yest.
sucks like hell. oh wells...

took momoki out for e 1st time. 'neh.. looks good but no suspension with spoilt gear', the bf said. we cruised ard the neighbourhood a lil before momoki come back to my hse again.

been sending out a few resumes, but not to those jobs search webbies. the idea of working like those kind is putting me off more and more. I want something more meaningful... something valuable to do.

ha. and partially something to keep me normal in the future. whatever that happens to me, i will still be.... normal... and sane.. and i wouldnt lost myself. yea, take it as i m safe-guarding my future.

and i just sent out the application for 'meaningful job' minutes ago, and i don't know if i made the right choice. but parents and bf are all very happy................ i m feeling a bit scared i think, whatever it is, i want to teach those kids.

i miss meiyu. no matter how angry and frustrated i used to feel, or how much i feel like going mad, all i need is a tuition session with her, and i can feel myself again. whether she's willing to listen to me that day, or willling to do the work i gave her, or willing to cooperate with me to sit still, i always feel a whole lot different after that one hour and a half. i m always fastinated by the blank i have in my mind before the tuition and the fulfilling feeling after that. i guess i m missing that now. today i saw the old folk's home opp bf's hse..... i suddenly got this resentment against the stupid diploma to my name.


whatever.. whatever....